Hi everyone !
I’m back again on my track after experiencing some crazy shit of life. It’s been over a month since I last posted on my blog and this one month was one of the most amazing month for me in terms of asperities of life. I experienced the things I have never experienced before, I come to know how it feels like when all of the people leave you in misery, I experienced the impact of smashing, when you have too much hopes from your people. Briefly, it sounds like the life said, “welcome to the next level”.
This post is just a linking post to the upcoming posts. I will briefly explain what has happened to me in last one month in this post and you will receive regular posts afterwards. So keep reading if you want to know about my fresh experiences with life.😉
Hopelessness, financial pressure, peer pressure, deceit, frustration, dilemma, anxiety, depression, life showed me everything in between within one month. The month of November been pretty much like a gloom chain for me. One disappointment after the another and so on. It started from the last days of october when I lost my job due to some reasons. After that, I started to look for another work but haven’t got one yet. In between, I had been working on a small survey and started to find participants. At first, many showed interest in the survey and promised to take part. But at the time of survey, no one really came. Not even a single person. I remember I asked two of my friends for the same. I decided to meet them on the day when the survey was going to start. But they didn’t come. Neither any phone call or text. Since that day, they never texted me back, however they used to send me a ‘good morning’ message. On the same day, I had a couple of other works to do. I had to make two important calls to discuss something important, but both of the clients didn’t pick up. I made 10 calls to each of them. The second work was to give an interview at the institute for a job. When I reached there, they let me wait for almost one hour and finally said that they’re too busy today, so come another day.
This day was followed by other days like this as well. Before this torment, I was struggling to get a job and facing intense financial pressure and family problems. I wanted to vent out my sorrows somewhere. I was in much need of a friend who could only say to me “everything’s gonna be alright, just hold on”. Even I know that already, but it makes a difference when someone else says this. I was helpless to take a step.
I had never ever felt that great need to share my sorrows with someone before, but I did at that time. I tried to tell my story to my closest ones, to my friends, but no one really showed any warm interest in me. They said they can only handle one life at a time and that is their own. It really hurted me as many times I tried to tell them something about myself. One of them said, “take your time and let me know when you’re okay”. Imagine if you would in a situation like this and receive this kind of answers, how would you feel ?
Along with this, I had other problems also, like I started out a Fiverr gig of writing, but later realized that why do I sell myself for the sake of some money ? a two roads like situation. I’m an emotional person and I write my articles with emotions and develop a relation with my writing. Due to this, my mind never lets me to sell it to someone else for the sake of money. So I cancelled the fiverr program.
This period of life taught me a new chapter of life that we shouldn’t share our joys and sorrows with the others, because nobody has enough time to hear you. They have their own life to live, their own problems to solve. Why would they listen to you ? Sorry, it’s not possible. I found a famous swedish proverb – Shared a joy is a double joy, shared a sorrow is half a sorrow a belief with no proofs and its vice versa might be true.
I still have the same problems in my life but it’s still going and I have decided something. I will never ever share my plans, my problems, my achievements with anyone from now because it hurts every time.
And one more thing I want to share with you all that I eventually bursted out my story to someone else. I have got someone who really understand me and gave me some confidence in myself what I needed the most. A stranger. No she’s not a stranger now. She’s a really good friend of mine. 😀 (If you’re reading this, I’m so glad you come in contact with me. Thank you soooooo much..😘😘🤗❤❤)
So how’s my readers’ life is going ? Are you alright or roving like me 😜😜 ??….Let me know in the comments. I’m so thankful for all your support and will forever be.❤
B. M.
(Originally published on BitterMarshmellos)